I’m not crying, ok?

by Mondo on April 20, 2010

Wanna hear the truth?

I’m a sensitive person.  Please, no negative comments about my singing, baking or weight.  Outside of that, I’m pretty easy-going.  Or, at least I think so…in my head.

Recently, I’ve been working on some new cookies.  The first one came out really well.  It’s called the Hawaiian.  It’s an amazing combination of pineapple, coconut, macadamia nuts and white chocolate.  I love it!  Everyone who has tasted it, loves it.  Proud, that’s what I am…proud to have created it.

The second one didn’t fare so well; I won’t bother with its name.  All of the people who tried it, including myself, had mediocre reactions, at best.  I knew it wasn’t finished, yet I sent it to a friend anyway.  Why did I do that?  Am I some sort of masochist or something?  But that’s not what’s truly bothering me.

It’s the third cookie that’s bringing me down.  You see,  specialty cookies have been my latest obsession.  The newest  one is called the Pick Me Up.  It’s a dark chocolate cookie with dark chocolate chunks and chocolate covered espresso beans.  That’s right…whole espresso beans!  Now, I know not everyone is going to love this cookie.  That’s why it’s in the ‘specialty’ category.  Duh…it’s special!  But it still hurts when people say they don’t care for it.

Now, it’s a well known fact that I seek approval through my cookies, but more importantly, I crave honesty.  My friends are the first to test my cookies because I depend on their truthfulness.   Snuda gave me her honest opinion about the Pick Me Up and I respect her for that.  She doesn’t enjoy the crunch of an espresso bean.  She isn’t a big fan of the brownie texture.  She’s my friend.  She pulls no punches.  That’s the way friends ought to be.

Still, I’m wondering again…why did I send her that cookie?

Was I excited?  Definitely.

Am I masochist?  Maybe…but let’s stick with my exuberance. The Pick Me Up is my 15th cookie.  It’s dark, sweet, and intense…kinda like me.

You want some?

{ 5 comments… read them below or add one }

Patty April 22, 2010 at 3:56 pm

You sent it because you love her and you trust her opinion….I understand why you did that. And she loves you enough to tell you the truth and lets face it…you have 15 amazing cookies to suit all palettes. Not everyone is going to be in love with every cookie but that doesn’t mean you are not an amazing cookie goddess! You are!

p.s. Remember when I called you about the pine sol? I felt so bad about it but as your friend, I had to tell you.

Mondo April 22, 2010 at 4:51 pm

Yeah, I remember that. I was working on the Holy Grail. You did the right thing, as did Snuda. I’m cool with it. Besides, I’m my own harshest critic. Nothing compares to the mental beatings I give myself, but don’t worry ’bout me. I’m one tough cookie. ;D

Snuda April 25, 2010 at 6:00 am

Patty is right! You are amazing cookie goddess, and you should never think otherwise! Just because I don’t like a cookie doesn’t mean you aren’t fantastic. I can’t stand coffee with cream and sugar, but love coffee ice cream, so obviously, I have a weird sense of taste when it comes to coffee. You take criticism so hard because you are a perfectionist, and that is ultimately what makes your cookies so good. I still love to eat things out of your test kitchen and a package from you always make a bad day great!

Mondo April 25, 2010 at 6:09 pm

Not only is Patty right; you are too. I am a cookie goddess! Although, I wish I weren’t so defensive sometimes, but that’s not my nature. I take my baking seriously. Regardless, I’m not crying, ok? I’m good. And let’s keep up the gift-giving. I really enjoyed that part of this minor snafu. ;D

Lainey April 26, 2013 at 5:26 pm

I want to try some. Maybe next week, after my glucose levels are under control. My jar of happiness (contents: Your White Choc Mac cookies) has dwindled down to a very low #. I dont wanna count because that will make Me CRY… Honestly, I’m too lazy to read the other peeps comments above mine, but, EVERY single cookie I’ve had that came out of your oven, has been heaven ( poet , I am.-lol ) with the Exception of one….dun dun dun… Remember that Nutella (Hazelnut ) ? that you tried a while back -what happened to it ?

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